JOURNAL: Awaiting the sign

Here I am again. At the end of another cycle of chemotherapy, anxiously awaiting next week's scans to see if the toxic chemicals that have been pumped directly into my veins since May have finally rid my body of cancer.

Last Monday, I completed my eighth, three-hour session of chemo. The last cycle was, by far, the most difficult, since I had originally been told to expect four months of chemo. When my last round of scans came back after two months of treatment, however, there was still about 10 percent of the cancer still in me, though it was not metabolically active.